it was my fault. i have been unstable of late, i keep snapping at the smallest things, there is something gnawing at me, i don’t know what is wrong. i hope you believe me. i love you so much, but i just keep hurting you time and again and its not like i can help it. i really dont deserve you. i hear you tell me all the things you have done for me and i m just so fucking thankful, you have no idea. I may not voice it, but i am. i m fucking thankful that i have somebody to hug me, to listen to me all the damned time. and the thing is, i dont deserve any of it. i have to walk away before i, of my own doing, destroy every single happy memory of me from you. i beg you, please always have fond thoughts of me. i dont deserve it either, but i hope you can do it for me. i want to be a beautiful memory